This blog post will be short… I’ve more astrology charts to make notes on and besides, Grey’s Anatomy season premier starts in less than 2 hours! So I will have to drop what I’m doing and bolt to my sister’s apartment which is quite simply around the corner—a mere two second jog on foot!
(She has cable, and I refused the temptation to look at those talking heads on CNN, etc. And I’m so happy I made that choice, except for Greys; I just watch it on HULU the next day usually. My sister invited everyone over; she has a big screen TV too — man O man they all look different on her TV!)
I’m still getting used to being busy and integrating infringes on my personal time through assisting my family … O and have I mentioned my daughter is engaged and her engagement party is this weekend?
I’m not a social animal in those ways and having to shake the dust of my hermit-self and the hermit doesn’t like it very much. To the point—there is objective time and SUBJECTIVE time. I’ve got to do better with the latter of the two but I’m realizing how much resistance I have and how stubborn too.
A work in progress and it’s all inside where I am making peace with it by really bringing it down to what it took pages to get to in my last blog. And that is simply living this affirmation: “I am in touch with the needs of this moment.” And that, in itself, helps me to be in touch with the “me” within so that I can center and be at peace no matter what schedule I’m trying to juggle.
Now if I can do that while meeting all of the groom’s family this weekend (nothing I resist doing more than making small talk with people I’ve never met—not that I’m not good at it because I am and that’s not false pride—it’s just something I thought well… “it is what it is” as they say but my old hermit wants nothing to do with any of it or any new relationships either for that matter! The inner child goes, “Awwhh, do we HAVE TO go???” and now suddenly I’m hoping the future groom’s family doesn’t read my blog… haha I’m sure that they don’t.
Gate’, gate’ paragate’ …parasamgate, bodhi, svaha!
Besides, I am in touch with the needs of this moment, I am in touch with the needs of this moment, I am in touch with the needs of this moment, I am in touch with the needs of this moment, I am in touch with the needs of this moment, I am in touch with the needs of this moment, I am in touch with….
Yeah, okay, whatever…
I’d better get going on those astrology charts that I have to make notes upon. I just wanted to blog that I’m making progress with this time thing… but its not been easy.