The wisdom teachers tell us that this reality, this lifetime is a bardo state just as the state after death is known as bardo—and that bardo states are states of deep uncertainty. Many people live their lives in that state of deep uncertainty while being out of touch with the self as well as, anxious, restless and often paranoid. I don’t think there’s all that much difference between the state after death and our states-of-being while alive; yet, I’ve not much aside from my own intuition to base that on. Anyway, I’ve been thinking how what can be true for people is how we have energies that co-emerge especially in times of crisis—wisdom and confusion arising simultaneously in ways that life presents us with a choice.
There does seem to be a certain clarity and wisdom behind the confusions of life (the dramas) and this is where we can turn to for our guidance moment-by-moment. It is not a contradiction; we can have and do have (if we self-examine our life with honesty) both clarity and confusion arising at the same time. It’s like we have a choice to look deeper for the co-existing wisdom that exists with or right alongside confusion; it’s always there.
I’ve also been thinking about gaps in thinking as being the basis for primordial consciousness or what I’ve heard referred to as sky consciousness—the sky is always there while there can be local weather and dark clouds or even thunder storms; if you go high enough you see there is clear and calm sky above the storms. Within our minds, this clear sky is the god-consciousness or use the word (s) you prefer to describe that clear sky—First Cause, Divine Intelligence, etc. I wrote about that in this week’s newsletter: The essential nature of mind has been called “God” by the Christians and Jews; Hindus call it “the Self”, “Shiva”, “Brahman” and “Vishnu”; Sufi mystics name it “the Hidden Essence”; and Buddhists call it “buddha nature”.
So these gaps in thinking during meditation and the gaps that happen and get even wider during a shock or trauma are opportunities to experience moments of enlightenment if we see them, recognize them.
Oh, my car used to give me those moments, believe it or not! One minute driving along and then suddenly the engine chokes and then surges and then chokes again; a bit shocking! Once it even (due to near zero transmission fluid/leaking without my knowing) went from 70 mph to 5 mph in less than 5 seconds. Well who had time to count seconds?—seemed instantaneous to me. Like some invisible force slamming on the brakes while you were fly along the Interstate Highway! Yeah, talk about giving you pause! Recently I slammed my small toe into furniture resulting in it hanging off to the side of my foot at about a 90 degree angle. Again, talk about slamming on the brakes! Those types of moments when the entire reality seems to change and one holds one’s breath in a way—time standing still because you are a bit shocked by what is happening… those are moments of heightened awareness and a bit of that clear sky manifests in the mind.
First there is a shock and you are a bit paralyzed and that is followed by a moment of deep stillness. It’s like you take a second or two to realize something horribly different from the previous reality has just occurred and then time stands still—any previous state of mind has completely vanished and in that in between state where one reality changes in to totally and drastically different one there is a peace in that transition, a deep relaxation and it can even become a momentary feeling of bliss as everything let’s go. There is something there in that transitional moment when reality suddenly changes in those ways and it’s that primordial sky-type of Presence with the capital P. There comes along with that an acute alertness that the reality isn’t real – the mind becomes totally free, liberated.
Strange as it seems to write about it now, those moments are weirdly comforting. Makes you wonder about people who continually seek those types of moments out—thrill seekers and the like. That’s not me by any means! Nor is there an intention to seek out those kinds of moments. Yet those moments can be really good re-aligners (if that’s even a word) helping us to come back into alignment and fully “present”. Personally, I’m for allowing things of that nature to happen naturally and only if necessary. I’ve been thinking about these types of events and wanted to blog about it. Next time (if there is a next time but certainly the time of death will be that type of time for all of us) my reality changes drastically like that, I’m going to try to hang out in that moment, that gap, intentionally for a bit longer in even more of a state of awareness if possible. The trick, I suppose, if there is one, is to remember to do that in the moment of crisis. Here’s hoping! 🙂