Hello from Wednesday, September 4, 2013.
A touch of fall is back in the air along with the bee-in-your-bonnet vocalizations and wall-banging sounds of my downstairs’ neighbors—yeah, they’re back. Well, that’s life isn’t it? I’m forced once again to stay present with what arises fighting the internal temptations to “do something” when nothing really can be done—our end of the building is constructed like a tent. Experiencing emotional distress is something that people try to escape through drugs, alcohol and yes, even meditation. Pema Chodron says that even long time meditation practitioners use meditation as a means of escaping difficult emotions. People even create a chronic disease to cover up their negativity. Let’s face it—it can be difficult to stay present with whatever arises. It’s not easy to stay with emotional distress despite the cause and be with the energy without judgment or self-punishment in order to go beneath it and find the deeper self. It’s not easy to fully experience the intense emotions and stay with them neither acting out nor repressing them. Well, that’s life in the big city—there’s always something as grist for the spiritual mill.
There was a brief moment late yesterday when I was walking toward my apartment. Yet another Indian couple moved into the building in the front apartment. I could hear him inside of my car with my windows up as soon as I shut off the engine. At first I didn’t know where the voice (s) were coming from but then I saw him lying on the floor (most Indians have no furniture), cell phone to his hear shouting into it and a female voice (although I did not see her) shouting over his. Charming!
It was a wonderful swim yesterday and I promise that I really do have to fight myself to get out of the pool once I’m in! And one hour and 15 minutes is a long swim but I do wish I could grow a set if gills and could remain in water—it’s so quiet under water but then there I go looking for an escape again.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how people use spirituality and meditation as an escape, but I’m also thinking about my daughter’s wedding—the time is fast approaching. Better get going so that I can work some more on the gift project I’m making and then back to the pool for another workout. But another thought on escape–more like reprieve actually. When a client calls for a reading, I’m totally not here in this apartment when I’m working on those levels; even if the lawn maintenance people are outside with a mower or leaf blower, barely hear it. In that sense my work doing psychic readings by phone is wonderful temporary relief–more than that. A gift! Now that I put it in those terms, how many people think of their work that way? I’m grateful.
Thinking of that project again… I’m learning to accept myself on yet another level; I’m not the artistic type with paint and brush and such. One does one’s best and one hopes that it’s the thought that counts after all is said and done.
Nice breezes and around 70 degrees and sunny and as I look out, the trees dancing in the wind seem to be calling me into the open air. As I look around the living room /slash/ den area here I’m pleased with my recent furniture arrangement and it reminds me of the nice weekend it was with my neighbors gone.
Of all people, I came out of the place where I’m working on my daughter’s wedding gift only to find her call out to me! Talk about energy merging! She was having lunch right next door with one of her brides maids—“I thought that was your car mom!”
I have placed my Happy Buddha wood carving at the top of my stairs on a little table stand and as I look up coming up the stairs I see him, reminding me that this apartment should be a happy place, not a place of suffering. This seems so much easier to accept when the neighbors are gone. And speaking of gone, it’s time for me to go while wishing you a wonderful Wednesday September 4th—seventeen more days to the wedding.
Daily Divination September 4, 2013 ~ Angel Card drawn: Divine Timing
This card reminds me of the blog post from the other day about making plans and about astrology and exactly that: Divine Timing. I love that astrology gives us more than a hint of divine timing. For example, take my daughter’s upcoming wedding this month—her PROGRESSED NEW MOON is in her 7TH HOUSE OF RELATIONSHIPS right when she’s getting married! yeah, new beginning in relationships is what astrology would predict and there she is getting married—after a long engagement! 🙂 “To every thing there is a season, turn, turn, turn; And a time for every purpose under heaven” — if your not too young to remember that song. And that’s Divine Timing—apply this insight to whatever troubles you right now, and if it’s nothing–there ‘s divine timing for that too, so smile. 🙂