Pandemic Pensive Perils

Two weeks ago there it was — vacillation between going to the gym or not.  Tarot cards said ‘no, don’t go’.  A day or so later the gym was closed; and day-after-day since, no need to tell you! Everything else shut down too.  Doesn’t it seem like longer than 2 weeks ago?

Well, I’m washing my undies by hand (usually go to a laundromat), cut my own hair (just the bangs), have taken to the streets jogging and found the very last set of hand weights in town.  No kettlebells, no dumbells anywhere and that included the big box places too like Academy Sports and Dicks Sporting goods (even though they still have curbside service–store otherwise closed).   Amazon? Yep, will ship some out in June.  Right; it’s March.  Kept looking and found a set (a wee bit too heavy) of 12# dumbells very used at Play it Again Sports (curbside service there too).  So this is for me a heavy set (ok back and chest) and I have a light set (2#, feels like a feather) and while I can double up with them, I really would like a set of 8’s#.  What else?  Anyway. . . grateful for the 12s.

Meanwhile, my daughter is buying my groceries — she takes my card and shopping list and brings back what she can find from the list that they’re not out of.  I don’t want to talk about toilet paper!!  She insists that she go to the store and not me; it’s so hard to give up even more control of my life that way.  But I’m healthy and that’s a good thing so I will shut up about it.

Nightmares have been happening — bad enough daytime nightmares while watching the news but in the nighttime now too.

Watching Trump’s afternoon briefings caused jaw clenching and now’ve got a good case of TMJ happening.  It’s okay, massaging it out and being aware when I’m clenching.  Geesh!

Thus, I’ve cut down my news watching time down to PBS evening news and not even listening to NPR radio in the daytime anymore.  Pandemic pensive perils!  Better for my neighbors that way I guess,  because after watching the horror and seeing them NOT social distancing, the temptation is to . . . well, best to leave that alone I suppose.

I’ve wanted to get back to jogging a bit and now that’s happening at least.  Happy about it and the knee is bearing up.   I’m doing outdoor walk/runs as well as doing arm/shoulder and chest/back workouts accompanied by Peloton instructors.  Link here: https://www.onepeloton.com/ They are streamed live and on-demand.  Those are really saving me!  

Tomorrow plan the sad call to the gym to put my membership on hold.  I miss the instructors and all the friendly faces;  Libby, Kathy, Martha, Diane, Debbie, Lynn, Donita, Sam, Chet, Tom, Denise, Aaron, Finola, Mary, Nancy . . . oh, I will cry if I keep going.  Really miss the gym and the peeps.

Some other news.  The library is closed and so is the park well, that’s not good news BUT we are still going to have the writing group in April via a platform called Webex.

Two of my daughters work for insurance companies and are working from home.  As the ‘stay-at-home’ orders became extended they had to buy larger desks and desk chairs!  My other daughter is a Nurse and they must wear double masks their entire shift and she has been issued a letter from the hospital with her photo on it in case she is questioned   (since there is a lockdown in both her home city and work city).  The letter explains she is a nurse and is, therefore ‘essential personnel’.   This, as you know, means she is allowed to be out and about in her car going to and from the hospital.

So much has changed in two weeks!  But you know that and are living it too.  We are not either of us alone dear reader!

Speaking of reading, I am reading C.G. Jung’s Memories, Dreams, Reflections which is his autobiography; so far all I’m reading is so very relatable.  I should be writing (my book in progress, barely) but with shell shock, it’s been a bit difficult to hold the mind still.  I will try this week to get back into that.

Well, ‘long day’ as they say.  Will end this post for now with wishes for your good health.  Stay balanced; let us all do our very best.  Today I am feeling so grateful for the very small and gentle gifts of the earth.  Trees are blossoming lovely colors, birds are singing and flowers starting to bloom.  They know nothing of any pandemic and their lives go on.  Same with the cats; the feral cats of the neighborhood who hang around with me if I’m out on the porch doing yoga or reading.  Love them!

Be well friends, remain in love with life, do what is asked of you and dedicate the merit of any and all efforts, especially your meditation efforts, to those who are fearful, sick, dying and need our energy intentions.  And of course to the brave and dedicated health care workers!

final thought:  This, too, shall pass.