May there be something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….
Before we get started catching up from Day #11 to now, let me just say how much I love my work! It’s intense—this project, this commitment, this change—but when I do a phone reading for someone, it is like drinking cool water from a pure source on a hot day. O, I’m sure there are better analogies to use—so let me just say it straight. When I do a reading, it is the highlight of my day and a healing of my energy; it’s great! And with the recent intensity of my life, the contrast is plainly and acutely pronounced. Healers know this—when they do a healing for another they are channeling healing energy through them and so they too become healed. It is the same in my work as a psychic and medium.
And now to continue from Day #11: whenever one makes a commitment for change, it will affect others and in my case I had to give that kind of notice or head’s up. I had no idea how it was going to go. Would I meet with any rage or resistance or resentment when I told others who would be affected about my commitment to this change? I held my breath (held my nose) and jumped in and did it. I had to because the persons I had to tell needed to be involved in the change itself. I had a moment or two of the heart beating fast and then holding the breath in anticipation until I received the response. It was surreal actually as much of the last 20 days have been.
Sometimes I will program ahead for the response I want from another—or I have done so in the past. You know—visualized it happening the way I wanted it to and then seeing that it did. That can be a very empowering thing to do by the way!
This time, however, I was more ‘in the moment’. What I mean is there was a level of confidence beforehand that no matter the response, I will deal with it as it happens moment by moment. And I did and it went as well as could be expected—well, actually in some cases better than could be expected.
The feeling was like I’m on this train and it isn’t stopping and so people will have to step aside because the train is coming through—yet, I am not driving the train as much as being a passenger.
Once those people were told about the change and that was accomplished things really took off… moved much faster… like the train was on one of those electric tracks that goes 110 mph instead of 40 or 50. It makes me think of how it goes from Washington, DC area to Philadelphia whenever I’d travel there from North Carolina. Through North Carolina, Virginia and Maryland the train was slow as molasses but once we got near DC, we hooked onto the electric track and flew! Well, that’s how it’s been… I’ve been flying for the past 9 days!
And I’ve had help! People help; family help; physical help and emotional help and so there’s the further evidence for the support for this commitment to change.
Yet, emotionally or within me there’s been an issue triggered by value systems—mine versus theirs! Or we could say fringe dweller spiritual and metaphysical values VERSUS big-city, Corporate America impersonal and “it’s all about the money mentality” and besides “you are just a number consciousness”—it’s been (to use their terms/words) just like “shock and awe”. I won’t go into that too much more because it is just me having to adjust to being in Rome and doing what the Roman’s do—at least externally. It’s not been pleasant on certain days and there’ve been times that I’ve sat on the floor and cried it out for a few minutes due to the ridiculous irony alternated by other moments on the floor laughing at levels of near-hysteria for the same reason.
Overwhelmed isn’t a strong enough word to describe certain moments but I’ve got tools and have “been there-done that” enough times emotionally that I know how to use them! So… it’s okay and I have in my 64 years upon the earth learned a good deal and have developed excellent coping and healing techniques!
So while the past 9 or 10 days have been moving quickly and have been intense mentally, physically and emotionally… the highlights have actually been when I’ve ceased in this project and helped another by doing my work, giving a reading. It is when I am being my truest and happiest self! And it’s not that I needed to make this change or commitment to know that—not at all; because I’ve always known that actually.
In 18 days my life will change and I will be walking into an area that is semi-unknown to me on certain levels. I have so many projects in mind after that which involve my work as a psychic, medium, astrologer and teacher! I feel sure my focus will be sharper and I will have more time and energy to devote to those endeavors.
Until then, this update must end. I know I just typed 18 days but I think of it more in terms of two weeks actually. I hope lots of people will want a reading over these next two weeks… and that is what I am asking the universe for!
I’ve just got to tell ya’ though, in the meanwhile, that it is so strange watching the events of my life and watching myself go in directions that I said to everyone that I’d never, ever go! and it’s not the first time this has happened! Shows to go ya’ or goes to show ya’ that you probably should never say never–especially to The Universe! Well, if you’ve lived life at all you already know that!
I will update again when there’s another opportune moment to sit down and gather myself and my thoughts. My North Node Taurus is being triggered by my approaching transiting South Node and while I’m starting this whole “Back to the Future” thing in some ways in my life… it should get even more interesting as the conjunction becomes more or less exact at the end of the year triggering and electrifying the 4th/10th house axis even further!
Hoping that there was something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….
See you next time…