It’s not a real glamorous image but there it is – the current energy pattern, called a grand cross. Energy opposes and energy squares all by the light of a full moon! We’ve all got this pattern playing out in our lives right now—the heavens ARE the heavens after all! The Sun and Moon/Pluto square the Uranus/Mars opposition and we’re getting that energy from all directions having to do with courage and freedom and all of those generalized 4th of July in America themes—freedom or death! And it may feel like that a little bit—death, I mean. That depends, I suppose, on how attached we’ve been or how much we’ve been asleep at the wheel as the saying goes. Uranus and Pluto are squaring – there’s a battle within the soul and freedom and transformation are the issues at large.
Keeping the eyes open and watching for those flashes of clarity is what I keep getting… sometimes it takes courage to wait it out when you want to grab the bull by the horns if you know what I mean. I’m not going to bore you with doing an astrology dissection but rather ask for guidance for all of us. If you are facing some intense issues right now, or if the full Moon triggering these intense planets has you feeling a bit like you are coming apart, you need some guidance and for that we can ask for some input from a divination tool, the I-ching.
Yeah, I know astrology is a divination tool too and we already know there are forces that are transforming (Pluto), emotional (Moon), liberating/surprising (Uranus) and reactive, passionate and aggressive (Mars) and they are all affecting our very essence (Sun) and the core of our purpose (Sun). We’ve got the forces of those planets and luminaries in our literal corners to draw from and use. Or we can let them do their work to transform us and our lives through experiences and challenges.
Yet, what is the best way to deal with the energy at this time? Let’s toss the coins and see what the I-ching oracle says. We have Kua 40, called DELIVERANCE.
Before a storm breaks, the accumulation of energy and tension can build to a point where if feels nearly unbearable then there is a sudden release of pent up energy.
The I-ching is clearly addressing the current Grand Cross energy and the oracle further advices that awareness and being grounded are especially needed right now for the release of energy, when it does release, could be very un-grounding.
It is vital to identify and clear away any destructive thoughts or actions that may create a heavy atmosphere—otherwise a storm of some type will have to come to clear it away.
Also, the oracle says that the current energy can enable you to see your life with greater equanimity, calmness and composure. There is a window of opportunity now to move quickly and decisively into a new order of things, and this is best accomplished with heartfelt gratitude for all the lessons learned.
My sister just said something that struck me in an interesting way as it applies to all this–she said that something that was oppositional energy in her life just got “squared away”. “We got that squared away”, she said referring to some opposition that she had with someone. Since she said that by phone (as I took her call while writing this blog), I found it very interesting–synchronistic.
Maybe Mars and Uranus can square away any issues of an oppositional nature that we have with Pluto/Moon and Sun and also the other way around!
Here’s hoping that anything in your life that needs to get squared away now is easily accomplished–that’s one way of looking at this Grand Cross energy. Perhaps the squares help the oppositional energies merge instead of oppose! And if you celebrate ‘the 4th’ as we call it in America, enjoy the fireworks and we hope it’s only the good and pretty kind!
From the other side the view is different—back to Kansas. Kansas, the land of traffic jams, double turning lanes i.e. “Get in the far right lane to turn left! — What?” But first things first! My body is black and blue and every muscle seems to ache and if I drop one more thing on my foot…. Well, the physical part of moving is heavy-duty! How we got it all in a truck that was a few sizes too small, that’s a miracle in itself. A van and two cars in addition were filled to the roof tops, including the trucks. Ahhh, the joy of moving! And I’ve still a good deal of boxes to open but for now I can find the important things and my office is assembled and so my shop is open so-to-speak.
I’m taking the time to write this blog post since my air conditioner has gone out and I’m waiting for the maintenance man to show up—perhaps it’s the way the “universe and I” are forcing a rest. In this summer heat, it is no time to increase body heat by opening boxes and doing heavy lifting. The mood of the moment goes like this: stay cool!!! So blogging requires the least amount of effort.
There have been quite a number of surreal moments since last Saturday—move-in day. Every day this week was filled with either clients or kicking, pushing, pulling boxes out-of-the-way. One dreamlike moment was yesterday when my daughter and I went to the pool—something I’d not have done on my own but with the air conditioner out and her insistence, I took the plunge! A very pleasant experience that was! When we got back, the air conditioner was working but that was only for a few hours then it went out again.
I love the trees just beyond my balcony and can almost reach out and touch them—glorious maples mixed in with a few other unknown varieties. From my bedroom window as well as the sliding glass door I can watch the birds hopping along in the branches and many will lite on the balcony railing from time to time. I don’t have to imagine too hard that I am a bird myself!
A peculiar moment during the first reading that I did here had to do with those trees. And before you think it, this part does sound a little bit ‘mashugana’ (crazy)–I’ll admit it. My experience is what it is—mashugana or not. In my old place (back in the ‘Merry Ole’ Land of OZ’) I would look out the window when doing readings. Now you may not understand this next part or it may be perfectly understandable to you (dependent upon your own level of consciousness I suppose). I draw informational energy from between the branches and leaves of trees. I’ve always realized this and in fact once cried special tears for the loss of a beautiful hemlock who was a muse for my work. They (previous landlords) cut her down, but I kept a small cut branch in memory of her—actually it sits on the balcony mixed in with other foliage right this very moment.
Anyway, in the maiden reading that I did here, I found myself looking at the blank wall for a moment or two during the first part of the reading and it was exactly like the expression used when no information comes, “Drawing a blank”. Suddenly, I realized that my gazed was fixed upon the white wall in front of me. When I switched my eyes to looking out the window, all kinds of information seemed to come through the trees!
So being at a pool while knowing that this is not a motel but I actually live here—that was a bizarre moment. Having dinner with my daughters a few doors down yesterday evening was another dream-like moment too. All very positive. 🙂
Yet, talk about an awakening! Traffic! It feels a little bit like playing that old video game, Pacman. Duck and dodge and drive like a NASCAR driver to avoid the hungry ghosts that seem to come out from every corner—how can I watch all 12 possible directions from which cars can come all at once! It didn’t take long for me to realize that I’d have to ‘resolve or make peace with’ the fact that I will have to trust that people will stay in their right places while I manage to do what is necessary in my own little corner of the chaos. Total overstimulation!
I’ve lived in small towns out in the country for the past 20 years and big city driving is something I’d nearly forgotten how to do. Driving like a speeding bullet or like I’m some NASCAR driver like Toni Stewart or Junior is going to take more than a day! My daughter kept saying, “Mom, you have to keep up with traffic. Go faster.” Rome wasn’t built in a day and this too may take a while. I will say that toward the end of the day I felt proud of myself. Maybe I can do it in a day after all. I was whipping in and out of traffic with the best of them but my heart was in my throat and it took all the concentration and focus that I could muster! But talk about pure adrenalin!(see my last blog post in reference to adrenalin)
I just need to learn to trust other drivers here the way I used to trust other drivers back in the mountains to stay in their own lane on those single-lane, hair-pin, switch-back curves! Yeah, it’s that middle path isn’t it? Trusting other drivers and then driving defensively while at the same time intuitively!
Whew! It’s getting hot in here and it’s just after 8 AM. Do I really want another cup of hot coffee? Excuse me while I go and get a fan to plug-in! [pause].
Okay, that’s better. Now to the telephone adjustments! Back in the Merry Ole’ Land of OZ, we didn’t dial an area code when calling a local number. I had a Twilight Zone moment this morning when I realized that it is “not necessary to dial a 1” but it IS necessary to dial the area code even if the number your calling is the person next door! Go figure!
That one took me longer to figure out than the “get in the far right lane to turn left” did. I have to feed my daughters’ cats next week—they are all going out-of-town together. Two of my girls live here but one is several Interstate Exit’s away and the directions to and from her place include, “Whatever you do Mom, don’t miss this exit because it’s too hard to get back on if you do.” So, it’s that and it’s get in the left lane to turn right in some places and the right lane to turn left in others. Wish me luck!
When I moved to the Appalachians it was very much like “You’re not in Kansas anymore Dorothy” and it seems that as soon as I’m comfortably infiltrated and merged with that culture (and it took 15 years!), now I’m back in Kansas i.e. the land of traffic and humans galore! It’s a nice switch and an exciting one at that. And I’ll be fine as long as I keep saying my “Jesus, Mary and Joseph”’s while I’m driving. I’ve lived in bigger and busier cities than this! I can do it! I will not be intimidated!
My office and living room need more tweaking in the décor departments but that can’t be done until the rest of the boxes are unpacked. Those and also the kitchen boxes are still piled in a corner but considering my work, I’ve accomplished a good deal this week. O and yay! The maintenance man is here about the air conditioner—seems the fan relay goes out and then the unit forms ice and freezes and whatever. Anyway…
Most of the time I pretend not to live in either Kansas or OZ–neither one! Truth be told and I’m a truth-teller, I’d much rather prefer to pretend that I’m a bird up in one of those trees that are only a few feet from my balcony!
Well, turns out we have a few hours to wait before the air conditioner can be turned back on; the ice has to melt. I get a little frosty myself (so there may be a connection) when relating to the duck in the rental office here! But that’s another story for another day if at all. Some things are best left unsaid or in this case un-typed.
Meanwhile, I release those frustrations and offer them up to The Protectors which has become frequent on certain days—but it’s all ‘part of the path’ and ‘spiritual grist-for-the-mill’ as they say. Then I go back to the trees and the birds, becoming ONE with that energy. Human lower-mind consciousness can then fall back; the connection to bias, opinion, resentment, preferences and judgments dissolve and peace is restored.
Boy O boy this coffee is good-tasting today! Same coffee, same coffee pot, prepared the same way each day—but today is the first day that I’ve actually slowed down and relaxed enough to enjoy it!
In 38 Days my life has changed a great deal. I’m back to the future again in so many ways–back with the kids and back with mass humanity. I’ve come down from my hermitage. There’s a whole new set of challenges, experiences and adventures in this new setting. Appalachia is like being on another planet, in another galaxy—far, far away. Yet, I’m only an hour or so from the Appalachian Mountain top from whence I came.
The vibe here is great really and the outdoor Buddha on my lattice-work balcony with the tree branches reaching toward the statues and plants, including my Angel statues, is actually much prettier than my house in the mountains. My granddaughter pointed out a vine coming from the closest maple branch that has heart-shaped leaves–she points that out like they are growing especially for me. I’m so glad I will have more time with her. My mother’s favorite flowering tree was a Rosebud tree which has HEART shaped leaves–I taught that to my little granddaughter and now she notices the shapes of leaves. She wanted to show me something special about the apartment that only she noticed. 🙂
I’ve heard no human sounds from neighbors and I’m on the other side of the parking area, so do no hear the sounds of cars either. My apartment is on the end and so this, too, is conducive to more quiet. It feels very good here all-in-all. I have sage and sweet grass to burn to cleanse the place, but do not feel the need. The energy of my daughters and grandchildren were here before my presence to decorate with “welcome home” signs and stock the refrigerator and pantry, etc. infused the vibe in here with love!
Previous tenants were from India as many residents here are and I feel a special connection to that country and their people.
Well, its late enough in the day now to contact clients for appointment-scheduling so I’d best stop typing and move along in that direction. The maintenance man who was very nice and apologetic about a burnt relay switch will be back in an hour or so to check on the melting ice on the central air unit and to replace the cover. It will be back to unpacking boxes later today between clients, once things cool down a bit more in here.
Just a final thought. It was 44 days ago that I inquired about an apartment here and am now actually here in one of those apartments typing this blog today! I moved in on Day 38. Here on Day 44, looking back at everything that was achieved in order to pull-this-off seems miraculous!
Getting all my ‘stuff’ around the back of this brownstone and up the stairs was another miracle that my daughters made happen! They called it “Operation Move-Mama-Bear” in their text messages and each car driving up the mountain to get me and my things was assigned a unit number for the ‘mission’!
I couldn’t be happier or feel more loved by my children! O and PS, a while ago I heard a lawn mower out back and smiled one of those inner smiles realizing that I no longer have to mow the lawn but can, instead, go in the pool to swim for my exercise. At least that’s true for the summer months anyway!
One last thing—I’d like to turn to the i-ching to ask for guidance for how to handle the issue of resentment and attitude that I have with the duck in the rental office here. I have very few ‘issues’ with others and in this case it seems that I get to review how to deal with difficult people—or at least my perceptions around that person. Maybe we have a past life to resolve or maybe I just need to get over myself! Or maybe it’s just a reflection of my own issue with authority figures generally and/or the representative of the “Lords” of the land, landlords.
I would like the i-ching to give me guidance and advice about how to handle this or what I should consider in regard to that duck situation.
So what do you say I-ching oracle? Okay, it’s Kua 10, called “TREADING”. It is also called “WALK YOUR PATH”. That alone—just those kua titles—gives you the idea that my connection with the duck is to be a part of my spiritual path, just as I said. But then again—everything is!
In the Wu Wei Book of Answers this kua is depicted as “treading the tail of the tiger”, meaning a powerful person can cause you harm.
Yeah, I get that!
This person is in a position that can hold some “Kansas” power and this person knows it and flaunts it–or so goes my perceptions. This is why the oracle brings up the treading issue.
When I see or perceive what seems like insincerity in another human, I have to ask myself if this is something within myself which I deny on some level? Yes, in a perfect world all humans would be sincere and authentic; this is what I liked about most mountain people–they are.
Mind games, power plays and ‘putting on airs’ was not—well, let’s just say that most mountain people are earthy and honest and that’s how I’d like to see myself too. Not so with the duck in power and in question.
Anyway, this kua indicates that I know how to behave properly around people who could cause me harm. It goes on, “Pleasant manners win over bad-tempered people”.
Ego Consciousness versus Essence Consciousness:
In my other I-ching book we have sharp contrast of human conduct emphasized. One conduct acts from essence and the other conduct arises from ego. I think we could say that people who are “fake” or “inauthentic” or “insincere” or are not of-the-earth or ‘put on airs’ are working from ego-driven consciousness.
When working from essence-consciousness there’s no putting on of airs and one relates to others with awareness and sensitivity to all variables in play and to the demand of the moment. Therefore, grey areas are visible and thus possible to integrate. When you act from essence-consciousness you understand that marching to the beat of your own drum is not a contradiction. Every orchestra needs the sound of an oboe!
Essentially, I need to tread the waters with these understandings as I relate to the mother duck around here who wants all the tenants to fall in line behind her! O, that image really makes me want to laugh. Mama Bear versus Mama Duck!
The Merry Ole’ Land of OZ has gone bye-bye. Back to the Future includes playing those duck games again. A small price to pay in order to play and work in my tree house and be near my family!
By the way, the “Platform 9 3/4” reference connects to a blog from the first Days that I began blogging about my committment to move.
At the moment of COMMITMENT – the Universe conspires to assist you!
O, and did I mention that dinner with my daughters yesterday was great!?
Yeah, all right. So there is freaking out just a little bit now. It’s Day #29. If you haven’t figured it out by now… I’m moving. ‘Cats out of the bag’ as of right now. Where in the world did that expression come from and why does it stick? Anyway, there’s the big reveal—I’m moving. Those last two words are pretty funny actually because right this minute, nothing is moving—it’s all just sitting here in boxes and bags and plastic containers.
I’m normally one of those “there’s a place for everything” kind of persons. And last night I walked in circles around piles of containers and boxes looking for the one that contains the light bulbs! I tried not to let it get on my nerves and reminded myself that transitions are like this—temporarily organized chaos!
Riddle me this, says the uncertain part of me. Am I doing the right thing? I have moments where I’m riddled with doubt and then along comes his friend, fear, and their cousin, apprehension. We’re NOT going there with them; this will all be over soon! Besides, I have more than an equal amount of certainty that this IS the correct ‘move’. So, what’s the issue? It has more to do with that Venusian thing of what meets the eye–brown boxes are not exactly eye pleasingly beautiful home decor!
I now realize how much energy I draw from my surroundings! If everything is clean and organized and arranged in an eye-pleasing way with color, shape and balance, when the eyes meet the environment the mind, body and spirit feel soothed—or something. Maybe soothed isn’t the right word exactly. I find myself looking out the windows more lately and while I do this often anyway, I realize that I look away from the boxes to seek feelings of harmony by looking out at nature. At least the trees, flowers and rocks have not changed!
Yeah, I know it’s temporary, but that’s not all that’s going on. I’m blogging in order to try and figure it out—that’s how I work through things if you haven’t already noticed!
I think it has to do with loose ends – too many of those but with just over a week to go, those can’t be tied up and just have to dangle. I have to “let be what is” and be in my own is-ness. And that can feel like letting more of this ‘stuff’ go and just floating away! I’ve released so many things over the past 29 Days. I’ve come across items that I didn’t even know were here and let go of other things by the truck load! All I can say is that I will have a huge tax donation deduction this year!
It’s just being unsettled I suppose—I’m not here, nor am I there. And ‘there’ has a certain unknown quality to it. I have not been in the space yet where I will be living and I find that completely… well, I have to trust and hope and bring sage and sweetgrass to burn, not knowing who was in that space before me. That’s how they do it in the cities now—you rent a space without being in it and then wait for the previous person to move out. Such is life in a rental community!
I will, however, be aquainted with at least some of my neighbors—my daughters and grandchildren! Yay! And that’s the joyful part of all this! No more worries about fog or snow getting up and down the mountain and no more missing their school plays and performances! The pluses outweigh the minuses. Besides, last winter up here was pretty rough all alone—many an eve I longed for a nice warm, cozy (dry!) apartment that’s easy to clean and easy to heat.
All I’m saying is that this is an interesting place that I’m at emotionally and psychologically—neither here nor there. I want to push time forward instead of waiting this last week. I’m ready to go NOW but have to wait for my family’s help. The move-out date was selected weeks ago and everybody arranged their work and travel schedule to accommodate that.
Thankfully there are clients calling for readings and this, for me, is just like looking out the window—I get to unplug from my own life and surroundings and help someone else. It’s an escape for me in some ways.
I am looking at my two angel statue yard decorations sitting nearby. I have them in a strong medal carrier ready for the journey. One is child-like and posed reading a book, sitting on a pedestal; and I have to admit she’s my favorite. The other angel is a larger standup version, holding a bunny rabbit in her arms. Emotionally, I sort of feel like these angels… like I, too, am sitting in a medal cage waiting for moving day to be released from bondage!
In my new place I will have an upstairs balcony apartment with a view of trees–it will be my tree house! And since it’s going to be like a dorm room in amongst so many others that look like those old historic Brownstone’s of the Eastern cities, I’m calling the whole darn apartment rental campus “Hogwarts” (after the Harry Potter School of Wizardry). The Brownstones where I’m moving are actually white and not brown, but it’s the architecture and the campus that’s similar to those of the Eastern cities.
I know happiness and boundaries are within the self and not the environ and this is what I am actually being reminded of here in these last 8 or 9 days–let’s call it a week; that sounds much better!
Part of my spirit is here, some of it is going over the switchbacks down the mountain yet another part is emotionally and mentally unloading boxes into the new place! I’m everywhere! And at the same time I am saying goodbye to this house and property that has sheltered my soul for 9 years—maybe there are too many days left to say goodbye! No, I’m not sad about it especially when I remember how wet and cold this house was last winter despite my best efforts to keep a fire going!
No more wondering if the firewood person is going to show up before I run out; no more worrying if the fuel oil is getting too low; no more pulling weeds, trimming bushes and mowing the lawn, no more shoveling snow to get out of the driveway, no more this or no more that. That’s the known; but I have the unknown before me.
My rent will nearly double and I’m not used to being around humans in a rental community; there’ll be an exchange of birds, bunnies and the like for humans. Lots of them! I will be less country and back to being “citified” again. I’ve already had a few encounters with city duck-mentality! (not pleasant) Will it be a challenge to make these adjustments?
Yeah, I think too much and besides I’ve got clients calling and other tasks here needing my attention so I should end this.
But before I do, I know there are others out there in cyber world ( like me) who are also in the midst of a transition. I’ve been in this state numerous times in my life—after all, I’m 64 years old and ‘been there, done that’ is a phrase I’ve used a lot. I’ve moved a number of times in my life and so I’m no stranger to it; but it’s been a while and I’d forgotten this feeling of being neither here any longer and not there yet.
It’s quite like floating in the ethers—no gravity, nothing to ground in to but one’s own is-ness. This is how death will be when the time comes; my own body will be like these boxes and containers. Yeah, okay young readers will think that’s morbid, so no more talk about that.
For those who may, like me, be in between this or that and not here anymore really but not there either—in other words, in transition… for you and for me, let me toss the coins and ask the i-ching for a word or sentence or two to help us while we’re in this phase.
Well, we received Kua 57. It is called “The Gentle” or “Gently Penetrating”. It is ‘The Sun’, doubled and is also called ‘two winds’—the first wind disperses negativity and the second wind changes attitudes. The guidance is to take small steps toward the completion of small goals and be patient and persevering. The message of this Kua is also about taking “the middle way” or the “middle path” and remaining gentle and free.
“Gentleness is flexible and free and not burdened by the maintenance cost of keeping a high-profile.” That line makes me laugh a little bit considering an email that I received this morning which was really a spam advertisement. If you are in my type of profession you know how you receive trick emails which at first seem as if someone would like you to be a guest on a radio show only to find it is gimmick to sell you a thousand dollars’ worth of radio time!
I thought about it for a moment actually now that my living expenses will be higher—but that’s just not who I am. It’s strange though because my natal chart indicates that my soul’s purpose is to work or earn a living in the public domain (10th house) by bringing Peace and Spirit in a grounded way onto the Earth. Well, that’s a whole other blog now isn’t it? Anyway, each time I consider doing a big public attention-getting blitz of some type, the end result is turning from it totally.
Well, according to this Kua 57 I probably shouldn’t even publish this blog entry—it reads this way: “This is not the best time to make sweeping changes or to announce future plans.” I was tormenting myself about how to create a new class (in astrology) last night and then I thought about tarot classes and totally revamping my current psychic class, doing a better job with at least the sign up page. Yeah, on and on it went and so I get it—let go of the idea of sweeping change right now. Just get through this move first, silly!
ADVICE FOR HANDLING A TRANSITION: During any transition the focus should be on adaptability as one remains tuned in to subtle and shifting energy currents of change. Keep a steady pace and make a routine as best as you can—do things that do not involve the mind too much.
HOLD THE VISION AND BE WILLING TO WAIT. Don’t be overly confident or doubtful either.
Stay on the path of least resistance for now and merge with the meandering course of the Tao in any way that it shows up right now!
One final word from the i-ching: in order to see the bigger picture when we are in transition we must periodically create some distance between the self and the forest. Only then is it possible to see the trees and where we stand in relationship to them.
Let “Is-ness” be the only “business”!
Feel better? C’mon we can do this! Its only death and rebirth after all.