Wednesday September 4, 2013 Daily Divination, Divine Timing, Escape and Self-Acceptance in Meditation

Hello from Wednesday, September 4, 2013.

divine_timingA touch of fall is back in the air along with the bee-in-your-bonnet vocalizations and wall-banging sounds of my downstairs’ neighbors—yeah, they’re back.     Well, that’s life isn’t it?  I’m forced once again to stay present with what arises fighting the internal temptations to “do something” when nothing really can be done—our end of the building is constructed like a tent.  Experiencing emotional distress is something that people try to escape through drugs, alcohol and yes, even meditation.  Pema Chodron says that even long time meditation practitioners use meditation as a means of escaping difficult emotions. People even create a chronic disease to cover up their negativity.  Let’s face it—it can be difficult to stay present with whatever arises.  It’s not easy to stay with emotional distress despite the cause and be with the energy without judgment or self-punishment in order to go beneath it and find the deeper self.  It’s not easy to fully experience the intense emotions and stay with them neither acting out nor repressing them.  Well, that’s life in the big city—there’s always something as grist for the spiritual mill.

There was a brief moment late yesterday when I was walking toward my apartment.  Yet another Indian couple moved into the building in the front apartment. I could hear him inside of my car with my windows up as soon as I shut off the engine.  At first I didn’t know where the voice (s) were coming from but then I saw him lying on the floor (most Indians have no furniture), cell phone to his hear shouting into it and a female voice (although I did not see her) shouting over his.  Charming!

It was a wonderful swim yesterday and I promise that I really do have to fight myself to get out of the pool once I’m in!  And one hour and 15 minutes is a long swim but I do wish I could grow a set if gills and could remain in water—it’s so quiet under water but then there I go looking for an escape again.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how people use spirituality and meditation as an escape, but I’m also thinking about my daughter’s wedding—the time is fast approaching.  Better get going so that I can work some more on the gift project I’m making and then back to the pool for another workout.  But another thought on escape–more like reprieve actually.  When a client calls for a reading, I’m totally not here in this apartment when I’m working on those levels; even if the lawn maintenance people are outside with a mower or leaf blower,  barely hear it.  In that sense my work doing psychic readings by phone is wonderful temporary relief–more than that.  A gift!  Now that I put it in those terms, how many people think of their work that way?  I’m grateful.

Thinking of that project again… I’m learning to accept myself on yet another level; I’m not the artistic type with paint and brush and such.  One does one’s best and one hopes that it’s the thought that counts after all is said and done.

Nice breezes and around 70 degrees and sunny and as I look out,  the trees dancing in the wind seem to be calling me into the open air.  As I look around the living room /slash/ den area here I’m pleased with my recent furniture arrangement and it reminds me of the nice weekend it was with my neighbors gone.

Of all people, I came out of the place where I’m working on my daughter’s wedding gift only to find her call out to me!  Talk about energy merging!  She was having lunch right next door with one of her brides maids—“I thought that was your car mom!”

I have placed my Happy Buddha wood carving at the top of my stairs on a little table stand and as I look up coming up the stairs I see him, reminding me that this apartment should be a happy place, not a place of suffering.  This seems so much easier to accept when the neighbors are gone.  And speaking of gone, it’s time for me to go while wishing you a wonderful Wednesday September 4th—seventeen more days to the wedding.

Daily Divination September 4, 2013 ~ Angel Card drawn:  Divine Timing

This card reminds me of the blog post from the other day about making plans and about astrology and exactly that:  Divine Timing.  I love that astrology gives us more than a hint of divine timing.  For example, take my daughter’s upcoming wedding this month—her PROGRESSED NEW MOON is in her 7TH HOUSE OF RELATIONSHIPS right when she’s getting married!  yeah, new beginning in relationships is what astrology would predict and there she is getting married—after a long engagement! 🙂  “To every thing there is a season, turn, turn, turn; And a time for every purpose under heaven” — if your not too young to remember that song.   And that’s Divine Timing—apply this insight to whatever troubles you right now, and if it’s nothing–there ‘s divine timing for that too, so smile. 🙂

Guru Yoga Meditation; The Beatles, The Buddha, The Blessings

Guru Yoga and Sun Meditation
Guru Yoga and Sun Meditation

It’s SATURN-day (Saturday) and while I give the Sun time to warm the balcony so I can enjoy today’s rays (tomorrow it’s going to be cloudy they say)… thought I’d blog some current thoughts. I’ve drifted back to doing a bit of guru yoga again—devotional stuff really does align the mind, heart and soul. Besides, it makes you really feel good and happy! Two nice words together there, don’t you think? Feeling GOOD and feeling HAPPY. Yeah, you can say it’s a choice and all that but I think there’s a bit more to it. Not to bring us down, but let’s be practical—life is full of ups and downs and potentials for times when the mood of good and happy is easier to achieve than other times. (Not that potentially it isn’t always possible I suppose.) Some days we’re more predisposed to react in happier ways than others—I think we can thank our lucky stars for that. Enter: Astrology. Yeah, I can see the correlations to those pre-dispositions to certain moods and difficulties via astrology. Astrologically we can consider Sagittarius energy or a good position of our Sun sign for a sunnier disposition—just to name a few influences; yeah, Venus is another.

Not wanting to get off the track and now seeing some rays hitting the balcony now, let me get to the bottom line. Guru Yoga is simply merging with the teacher, the master, the deity—what’s your preference? Need examples? Okay, Buddha, The Christ energy, St. Theresa, Mother Mary – surely you remember the song “Let It Be”, right? The result of guru yoga whether The Beatles knew it or not:

let it be

“When I find myself in times of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me / Speaking words of wisdom, let it be / And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me / Speaking words of wisdom, let it be … “

Once you have your deity in mind (your guru—the master teacher) and for me sometimes that is Mother Mary too or other times Buddha himself or Padmasambhava (who established Buddhism in Tibet in direct line with the Buddha).

The idea is to relax in meditation and fill your heart with the presence of the deity you have in mind, you see? And that would be literal—visualize the deity; see the energy before you… “and in my hour of darkness, she’s standing right in front of me…” as the Beatles sing.

So invoke the energy and allow your mind to merge with this energy very strongly with total heart and total mind—very purely, very innocently with great trust like the trust of a small child to the mother or father.

Then you can say, “Oh help me now and fill my mind with the content of yours and my heart with your heart and fill me with your wisdom, your compassion, your love. Bless me with your kindness and help my understanding.

I love hearing Lama Surya Das sing the mantra for this: Om Ah Hung Benza Guru Pema Siddhi Hung.

Sometimes it helps to visualize many little beings of your deity—many little Buddhas or Mother Marys or whomever your call; perhaps many little Angels if it is an Angel in particular you call to merge with in your Guru Yoga Devotion….

I like to see many little beings in the form of sound as I do a chant are circulating inside of me, in every cell, atom and molecule of my body, heart and mind on all levels, transforming me.

And now while the Sun is in full force on my balcony, I must go and be in that Sun—I will use that Sun the catalyst for a Guru Yoga Meditation, feeling the warmth as the compassionate and wisdom energy of the Buddha within me awakening in every part of my being!