Day #28 Substituting Hope and Trust When Any Fear Emotions Bubble Up – What I Was Doing when Venus Transited the Sun

Alright!  We’ve landed on Day #28.  Something really big is going to happen (if all goes as planned–and it will~!) on Day #37.  So there’s 9 more days to go and its a bit difficult to be patient now.  That’s probably my own fault for being too much of an overachiever which really stems from fear-ish like paranoia that goes this way:  Hurry and don’t put things off in case at the last-minute something happens and you run out of time or some other type of energy!  

I was that way in college too–always had my assignments done and ready to hand in ahead of time.  And then when the professor gave time extensions because others weren’t ready, the temptation to be righteous about it was hard to resist.  Anyway, better to be early rather than late–ask my family; I’d always get to the plane or train hours early.  Hurry up and wait–that’s me.  You too?  Well that’s just how some of us are wired; embrace the neurosis.  As phobias go, there are worse ones to have I suppose.

Yet, I am still feeling a bit of that feeling from Day #22… you know, the protective roof being removed yet do see the prediction from a week ago about quick and steady progress has indeed been manifesting!  This past weekend my daughter and I worked harmoniously together to the tune of gearing up the final stages of things–she was a great help to me. 

I am finding that I am letting go of a way of life that I’ve held for 9 years on one level and about 14 years on another and it totally feels like a new phase, a new chapter–the page has been turned!  I am saying goodbye to the old and piecing together in my mind what the new will be like and how I will use my time in new ways.  I think it’s good that these final 9 days are ones in which I can gradually slow down, look around and inventory the whole affair. 

It is strange in a way because what I am doing is something that I never thought I’d do–ever really, ever!  And that is because I thought that if I did make this change and agree to the committment that it would feel terribly sad–NOT!  And that NOT really does mystify me sometimes.  It just shows me that when the time is right and the stars are in alignment (and mine ARE; but I’ll spare you the details but to say my natal lunar nodes in the 4 and 10 astro houses are merging with the transiting nodes this year and my 4th house Jupiter in Scorpio is opposing transiting Jupiter from the 10th.  Let’s not even talk about my progressed Sun just moved into my 5th House!) 

That parenthesis above mean nothing to do if you don’t know astrology and I apologize since I did not spare you the details.  Yeah, so anyway… 9 more days and an old part of my life goes bye-bye and a brand new adventure begins! 

I’m getting some hints about what’s coming–people are asking me to teach astrology and I’ve been thinking about it all at the same time.  It’s only Wednesday and already 4 people have asked me about teaching an astrology class.  I hesitate thinking I don’t know enough, but then  again I do know a bit more than a brand-new beginner would and those types would be my target students I suppose. 

I intend to teach an in-person local psychic development class–and now I am mental-izing how to follow through with these ideas.  I’d love to interact in person with students–the Internet class is fine but I’m open to expanding that and these are ideas ruminating in the mind right now.  We’ll see how it goes but this is how my psyche and spirit work it seems–people start asking me to do what I’ve been thinking of doing and so that becomes like the validating push.  Does it work that way for you too?

Right–so anyway after having recovered from some physical fatigue and spent short segments of time staring at the ceiling over the past weekend it was like two steps forward and one step back.  I seem to have to integrate it during a rest phase and then get back at it again as I work toward Day #37. 

At the start of this sudden project and  committment toward a major change, I didn’t know if it would take 30 days or 60.  Things have been moving quickly as I’ve said all along.  Any periodic apprehension is being handled by me through intense devotional prayer work to which I find that something happens shortly after to soothe any of that by giving some supportive validation–something encouraging happens to smooth over any worry wrinkles.  Bad for the complexion as well as the soul–those are!

VENUS crosses the SUNNot much more to report about it all but to say when Venus was doing her transit over the Sun which started from 6 pm EDT  last night I happened to be dealing with my check book, bank balances, bill payments and the like!  Didn’t think of that until today but Venus does rule the 2nd house which is often associated with “money”.  I don’t know what conclusion to draw from that really.  So what!  Right?  Yet as Venus came between the Sun and Earth we all must have received some sort of energy programming or the like.  Since my mind was, at that time, on $money$ issues, perhaps I was receptive to some positive programming from Venus energy as it relates to my essence, which for all of us is our Sun.  I do recall lecturing to myself as I began the task of looking at the money situation.  I told my self that I will not become in any way upset about money as I worked on the task!  And I meant it!  And I didn’t!

With my progressed Sun moving into the 5th house related to “children”, my relationship with my own daughters is strengthening and this grow more so each day.  Perhaps the Venus-Sun transit will help to continue to renew those loving relationships in the days ahead.

I’ve a client calling for a session and a busy afternoon ahead… I am asking to remain busy over the next 9 days so that I can forget the time to experience it quickly!

Meanwhile, each day I find that I am substituting any experiences of fear as they come up in the emotional body with trust and hope.  It becomes easier to do so despite anything else that should appear, regardless of what it is. 

Onward and upward as they say!

 
When you consciously embrace an experience of fear while shifting your vibration into trust or hope, you evolve! expand! enlighten! You GO!

Day #20 Value System Shock and Awe – North Node Taurus and Electric Train Goes Back to the Future

Electric Train
When Life Starts Moving Like An Electric Train!

May there be something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….

Before we get started catching up from Day #11 to now, let me just say how much I love my work!  It’s intense—this project, this commitment, this change—but when I do a phone reading for someone, it is like drinking cool water from a pure source on a hot day.  O, I’m sure there are better analogies to use—so let me just say it straight.  When I do a reading, it is the highlight of my day and a healing of my energy; it’s great!  And with the recent intensity of my life, the contrast is plainly and acutely pronounced.  Healers know this—when they do a healing for another they are channeling healing energy through them and so they too become healed.   It is the same in my work as a psychic and medium. 

And now to continue from Day #11:  whenever one makes a commitment for change, it will affect others and in my case I had to give that kind of notice or head’s up.  I had no idea how it was going to go.  Would I meet with any rage or resistance or resentment when I told others who would be affected about my commitment to this change?  I held my breath (held my nose) and jumped in and did it.  I had to because the persons I had to tell needed to be involved in the change itself.  I had a moment or two of the heart beating fast and then holding the breath in anticipation until I received the response.  It was surreal actually as much of the last 20 days have been. 

Sometimes I will program ahead for the response I want from another—or I have done so in the past.  You know—visualized it happening the way I wanted it to and then seeing that it did.  That can be a very empowering thing to do by the way!

This time, however, I was more ‘in the moment’.  What I mean is there was a level of confidence beforehand that no matter the response, I will deal with it as it happens moment by moment.  And I did and it went as well as could be expected—well, actually in some cases better than could be expected. 

The feeling was like I’m on this train and it isn’t stopping and so people will have to step aside because the train is coming through—yet, I am not driving the train as much as being a passenger. 

Once those people were told about the change and that was accomplished things really took off… moved much faster… like the train was on one of those electric tracks that goes 110 mph instead of 40 or 50.  It makes me think of how it goes from Washington, DC area to Philadelphia whenever I’d travel there from North Carolina.  Through North Carolina, Virginia and Maryland the train was slow as molasses but once we got near DC, we hooked onto the electric track and flew!  Well, that’s how it’s been… I’ve been flying for the past 9 days! 

And I’ve had help!  People help; family help; physical help and emotional help and so there’s the further evidence for the support for this commitment to change. 

Yet, emotionally or within me there’s been an issue triggered by value systems—mine versus theirs!  Or we could say fringe dweller spiritual and metaphysical values VERSUS big-city, Corporate America impersonal and “it’s all about the money mentality” and besides “you are just a number consciousness”—it’s been (to use their terms/words) just like “shock and awe”.  I won’t go into that too much more because it is just me having to adjust to being in Rome and doing what the Roman’s do—at least externally.  It’s not been pleasant on certain days and there’ve been times that I’ve sat on the floor and cried it out for a few minutes due to the ridiculous irony alternated by other moments on the floor laughing at levels of near-hysteria for the same reason. 

Overwhelmed isn’t a strong enough word to describe certain moments but I’ve got tools and have “been there-done that” enough times emotionally that I know how to use them!  So… it’s okay and I have in my 64 years upon the earth learned a good deal and have developed excellent coping and healing techniques!

So while the past 9 or 10 days have been moving quickly and have been intense mentally, physically and emotionally… the highlights have actually been when I’ve ceased in this project and helped another by doing my work, giving a reading.  It is when I am being my truest and happiest self!  And it’s not that I needed to make this change or commitment to know that—not at all; because I’ve always known that actually. 

In 18 days my life will change and I will be walking into an area that is semi-unknown to me on certain levels.  I have so many projects in mind after that which involve my work as a psychic, medium, astrologer and teacher!  I feel sure my focus will be sharper and I will have more time and energy to devote to those endeavors.

Until then, this update must end.  I know I just typed 18 days but I think of it more in terms of two weeks actually.  I hope lots of people will want a reading over these next two weeks… and that is what I am asking the universe for!

I’ve just got to tell ya’ though, in the meanwhile, that it is so strange watching the events of my life and watching myself go in directions that I said to everyone that I’d never, ever go!  and it’s not the first time this has happened!  Shows to go ya’ or goes to show ya’ that you probably should never say never–especially to The Universe!  Well, if you’ve lived life at all you already know that!

I will update again when there’s another opportune moment to sit down and gather myself and my thoughts.  My North Node Taurus is being triggered by my approaching transiting South Node and while I’m starting this whole “Back to the Future” thing in some ways in my life… it should get even more interesting as the conjunction becomes more or less exact at the end of the year triggering and electrifying the 4th/10th house axis even further!

Hoping that there was something here in this writing to somehow help another along their path….

See you next time…

How to Move Through February 2012; Divining some Guidance for the Upcoming Month I-Ching Kua 44

The question in mind for today’s divination message here on the last day of January 2012 is about February and how to move through this new month with grace, ease, security, contentment, prosperity and happiness.  The guidance and wisdom reply comes through Kua 44, The Attraction of Opposites. Suddenly, I think of that phrase “fighting fire with fire” and envision how quickly fire can catch and spread.  In the Wilhelm/Baynes Book of Changes this Kua is called “Coming to Meet”.  Fire can fester below the surface, below ground roots can burn without the eye seeing fire and then suddenly the flames spring up and spread.  It feels that we are being guided to keep anger, passion or any type of fiery energy from getting out of control.  Interesting; since Mars (the planet associated with fire) is retrograde meaning fire energy turned inward toward oneself.

Another image that comes to mind is of heaven and earth coming to meet each other but if there is a desire for personal selfish gain at that time, the energy can backfire and disastrous results could occur.  So here is, it seems, a head’s up that we should keep our efforts free of selfish motivations this month especially as we “Come to Meet” the higher energies that are available to merge with us here on Earth.  Sounds pretty esoteric I suppose, but a reminder to keep our motivations altruistic and humanitarian this month can’t hurt.  Careful that all of the efforts in February are not solely motivated by a desire for personal recognition and personal gain—that can get too easily out of control.  As Edgar Cayce once said during a reading, “There is set before thee good and evil.  Chose thou.”

Approach others throughout the month of February from a position of equality and independence with your footing on equal ground.  Don’t let the wind carry the fire creating an out of control situation.  Remain conscious and avoid passions becoming out of control and avoid becoming heavily invested in any particular outcome.

Transiting Mercury is moving through the constellation Aquarius now.  It is nearing our Sun and will merge with our Sun on Feb 7th.

Insights from your Soul about your ‘purpose’ can flash in as this progresses  if you can be clear/open these first few weeks of February 2012.

Today the Moon is in ♉ Taurus… remains until Wednesday Feb. 1st afternoon EST. Taurus ♉ rules the 2nd house of what is valued (AKA House of $money$). It’s a good time to visualize all the bills are paid and a steady stream of money flowing toward you. ♥  People are likely to be in a conservative mood when the Moon is in ♉ Taurus… folks will favor banking, gardening and generally chill-laxing!  PS — the hungry ♉ Taurus Moon feels fed when its feeling secure.