Betrayals of Trust and Emotional Devastation — How to deal with that

nature devasTAROT INSIGHT:  sometimes we feel that people we love betray us or turn against us and it can feel crushing.  From a Buddhist perspective this can be a problem of self-cherishing and also attachment to particular expectations of people.  In both cases, life gives us what we need to course correct–painful and disappointing as it may be.  I thought to ask the Tarot to give some guidance or insight about these types of emotional gottcha’s.

First though whether people have actually betrayed us or not (sometimes they do unknowingly or sometimes, yeah, it’s intentional) but either way we still have our own emotional feeling to deal with as the residual.  I’m asking for guidance or insight from the tarot about how to deal with the emotion.  Ha!  sometimes I have to laugh at the divination process and how literal it can be!

What card did I draw to pull insight from?  PAN or in some decks the card of  THE DEVIL.  Instantly one thinks of being caught in the hell realms, chained to a person or an idea.  In any case, the card is an indication of being out of harmony with natural law and relates to the need to break old patterns.

Past lives comes right along with the word patterns in my way of seeing things.

They did it in the past–the betrayal.  Maybe not that person or that group of persons but it’s some old wound we’re still carrying around more than likely.   Pan is thought to be the nature god and the world “panic” comes from this source word “pan”.

Pan suggests we laugh at our selves and our life-predicaments instead of falling back into addictive behaviors, unconscious attachments and self-imposed limitations.  Pan says to laugh and be joyful about our lives.

What type of insight does this card offer?  To lighten up, not take one’s self  so seriously, let goes of cares and worries and play more.  Divination rocks!  Especially if you can follow the advice.

Go out and play in nature and try to lighten up–it’s hard (I know) but try to find some humor.  And if all else fails:  Valerian!  

Daily Divination 7-29-11 Dispersion; Know Thyself; Enlightenment and Lighten Up with a Smile – I-CHING Kua 59 with Astrology and Tarot Keywords

 A man who has not passed through the inferno of his passions has never overcome them.

–Carl Jung

Denying one’s own feelings and thoughts is no way to create unity with one’s spirit or have a reunion with higher self. This is similar to shutting down and disconnecting. Is every feeling and thought we have going to be saintly or light-filled? And is it supposed to be? Look around. If we’re human living on planet Earth, probably not every thought and emotion is saint-like; but to suppress or deny what we think or feel is tantamount to separating from ourselves. It also creates a state of living in denial—a false world, an illusion. The religious fundamentals will try to tell us we should only have “pretty thoughts” and anything short is some sort of dirty angel or devil at work or there’s something wrong with us. Yes, there it is, they’d say, we are all imperfect sinners and then they spew their whoopla, which is usually what their preacher told them to say while out evangelizing.

But back to the conditioning that indoctrinates us into an idea that we must always be a particular way—a way in which we deny our own soul. That’s the start of the delusion which left unchecked can lead to a superiority complex or fundamentalism that is dangerous. If we bypass the opportunity for self-reflection that self-acceptance of our thoughts, feelings and tendencies can provide, we close the door to our own self-improvement and evolution and move into the fanaticism realms of life.

When we have a feeling or thought (pretty or not) that comes up, and we allow ourselves to examine it, trace it back to where it began, we can take our first step to healing and true self-improvement (and empowerment)—not suppression or repression.

Whatever is repressed becomes distorted.

I’ve been thinking about all of this today and it wasn’t until now, early evening, that I’ve had the opportunity to do an I-CHING draw. Its Kua 59 called “Dispersion”. It is about dissolving and disintegrating energy through uniting with it and understanding it for the purpose of restoring harmony. Ho! And that’s exactly what I’ve been contemplating today.  My Moon is transiting my 12th House today closely approaching my Mars/Pluto/Saturn stellium — translation:  my mood is very deep and esoteric.  I’m having to dig deeply to attend to this blogging task because almost all of me wants to withdraw, escape and disappear.  🙂  THINK TAROT:  The Hermit.   Moving right along  anyhow….

A  few things came to mind as I typed those last sentences in that paragraph above. One has to do with a smile and the other with some wisdom from Carl Jung who said that we don’t reach enlightenment by envisioning beings of light but rather by bringing light into dark places. That light or knowledge-of-self is able to enlighten; but one has to be fearless and willing to look deeply into one’s self. Yeah, and into those dark places—fearlessly. And when I write the word “dark”, it refers to the places of ignorance or unconscious-ness that self-knowledge can lighten — shed light upon.

That seems to epitomize (to me anyway) the meaning of today’s message inspired from Kua 59/Dispersion. One could say to disperse rather than to repress. To repress is to live a life of delusion; one risks living a distorted life which comes about through an unwillingness to allow and understand one’s own feelings and thoughts in favor of playing a people-pleasing role in order to be accepted.

It makes me think of the planet Mars and the sign it rules, Aries, which is impulsive energy; it learns from its reactions. That archetypical energy evolves through understanding its reactivity. If we don’t allow ourselves to have a reaction and then examine it, how can we possibly ever… ? Well, think of it as the doorway into the unconscious–to the soul.  That’s the message from and the lesson of Mars/Aries.

I’m not supporting a wild idea that we all run around taking everyone’s head off; I’m only suggesting that we not beat ourselves up if we allow the thought or feeling room enough to surface so that we can examine it and learn from it. Besides, sometimes we just need the release—it’s not all that unhealthy once in a while after all.

Another part of this idea of dispersion has to do with lightening up and that’s where that smile that I was thinking of a moment ago comes into play with today’s message. Here’s what I mean and by the way I’m talking about a smile that is sincere, not one stemming from smugness or one that has grown out of a distorted reality or feelings of superiority. I’m talking about one of those ‘home-grown’, down-to-earth, true-to-life types of “I know who you are and I know who I am and I love us both” kind-of-smiles that has nothing whatsoever to do with ego.

Talk about dispersion! When you’ve received one of those smiles from another, you know it and lighten up immediately. This Kua is about lightening up as well as dispersion. The unity of a smile can restore harmony, dissolve divisions and revitalize you, can’t it? How many smiles like that have you given and received lately? Many, I hope! Keep up the good work says Kua 59 of the I-CHING and stay true to that energy within you and others!

That kind of smile comes out of us spontaneously when we know who we are; but we will never know unless we allow ourselves to understand our thoughts, feelings and reactions—something we can’t do unless we allow them. That’s how we grow and evolve and it’s why we’re here in the first place—at least this is my truth for today.  Know Thyself!

THE ASTROLOGICAL AND TAROT ARCHETYPE CORRELATION KEYWORDS FOR KUA 59/DISPERSION

Astrological Keywords

Leo – you are the center of your own universe but avoid forcing your reality onto others; avoid living a theatrical life for the purpose of getting people to like you; avoid the tendency to become the actor in someone else’s creation for the purpose of attention; realize you cannot play god in someone else’s life

Virgo – be willing to “discern” your own thoughts and emotions

Libra – avoid people –pleasing and projecting onto others or allowing others to project onto you

Scorpio – become the psychological detective to your own thoughts and emotions; probe deeply into your thoughts and emotions for the purpose of self-awareness and evolutionary growth

Tarot Keywords

The Magician — employ the power of creative transmutation

The Hermit – reflect on your life experiences; find your answers within

Strength — have the courage to face challenges and face fears; using your inner power

The Tower – this card relates to Mars/Aries (see above); experiencing an inner awakening by releasing old defenses and delusions; being willing to be socially unacceptable in order to be true to self; awakening to one’s inner truth; sudden self-awareness

The Devil (Pan) – looking at self to see where we are not in harmony with nature and natural law; the need to lighten up (Pan) and not be too serious; ability to face one’s self

Wheel of Fortune (Medicine Wheel) — restoring harmony; being natural; bringing spirit into flesh (not separation of spirit and flesh which is a patriarchal christian fundamentalism issue)

Daily Divination 7-28-11 Today call upon and direct the collective forces; It’s time to take the bull by the horns – I CHING KUA 7, Discipline

Today we realize that the confusion or ineffectiveness that has gone on for too long must be stopped and it’s time to take the bull by the horns as they say. Create a strategy and stick to it with disciplined focus. The cosmic communiqué comes from Kua 7 of the I-CHING which is called “discipline” or “the army” or “collective forces”.

If you can work together with others to accomplish something today—do so. But even working on your own is effective if determined effort and discipline is applied to clear-cut and worthy goals. Apply your innate right to call upon the collective forces that surround you and direct those energies!

One hopes that this is what is occurring in Washington, DC in the United States today—the time for nonsense has ended and it’s time to end the confusion and distortion and become effective.

In your own life, maybe it is time to start that diet or exercise program or achieve that goal that you have been putting off. Whatever it is, exert your own inner authority and be determined not to allow doubt or excuse or any other weakening thought or attitude.

In certain areas or situations or circumstances of our life we must not fail—failure is not an option! What is that for you today? Gather your inner and outer forces of energy and direct them with authority. If you need to elicit the assistance of others to achieve your goal, provide the reason for them to be dedicated to help you—motivate them!

This Kua 7/Discipline brings to mind the time when I was going to school to receive a degree–in Physical Therapy Program. I developed a “do or die” attitude knowing that at the time my freedom and survival both depended on acquiring the degree and passing the board exams. It was THE most disciplined time in my life (aside from training to run in 10K races, but that’s another story). I’d start to worry… those little doubts tried to creep in on occasion.

Whenever that started to happen, I’d straighten my back, raise my chin and with a stiff upper lip would say to myself, “STOP!”, before the whole thought could fully form. Failure was not an option. That was true for other times in my life too and for all of us there are times when we have to say with determination, “This is how it is going to be, PERIOD—END OF STORY—WILL NOT HEAR ANYTHING TO THE CONTRARY!”

And with that I’d gather up the energy and have at it. That’s what today’s message is about; locating those determined feelings and helping others locate them in themselves and then whipping it up and not taking no for an answer. (Well, that’s my take on it anyway.)

I do believe that when we align with a purpose and feel deep within its worth and we have that type of determination, The Universe aligns with us and the Angels sing from the high realms, “So be it, Hallelujah and Amen”. But, that’s me.

ASTROLOGICAL AND TAROT ARCHETYPE CORRELATIONS TO KUA 7

Astrological meaning keywords:

Capricorn – discipline, authority, effort, maturity, work

Aquarius – group energy, community, clan, those of like-mind

Libra – fairness; justice; balance needs to be restored; relationships with others

Scorpio – get to the bottom line core issue

 

Tarot meaning keywords:

Death – permanent change

Empress – birthing something new; creative impulses; co-creating with the Divine Powers around and within us

The World – end of the line; end of a phase; need to break through inertia; unity of all elements; all-encompassing power and energy

The Tower – old defenses and ideas need to change; protective walls of illusion come tumbling down; no longer functioning based on consensus or “race consciousness”; inner awaking gets rid of obstacles

The Devil – breaking up old patterns; releasing self-imposed limitations

Wheel of Fortune – need for devotion to a disciplined ritual in one’s life; need to focus on goals and aims; unity of the 4-directions; turning point in a cycle