Personal Tarot Traits – I was the Knight of Swords!

Personal Tarot Traits – Relating Personal Daily Experiences to a Daily Tarot Card

Knight_of_SwordsI was the Knight of Swords.  This card is about obeying one’s own Spirit!  I was the Knight of Swords yesterday… well, at least there was me personifying this archetype.  I spoke my truth.  I was brave.  Someone (like me) with a lot of “people pleasing” and “confrontational avoiding” Libra in a birth chart finds that a challenge.

I took some action involving communicating something that represented my personal truth yesterday.  We could say that I defended my own truth which took a bit of courage in a way that is untypical of me.

(By the way, I’m not referring to anything having to do with yesterday’s King of Swords–I’m writing about an entirely different life experience.)

Sometimes when we do this kind of thing — speak our mind  honestly or make a decision that is in alignment with our inner wisdom — especially if we’re not accustomed to doing so — we may feel a pang of concern about it afterward.  Did I create karma or set into motion something that may come back to bite me?

When I drew this card yesterday,  I had no idea what it could mean for the day ahead. My own habit when I see a knight of any suit is to think “change” in some way. Perhaps “change” was true to some extent yesterday as well since, one thing leading to the next, I ended up changing my office arrangement again!  Which in this small apartment is like putting together a jigsaw puzzle.  LOL   As I was moving things around the apartment I thought of the Knight of Swords and of my usual tendency to think “change” with this card.   And of course “action” is another keyword that comes to my mind.  So those things fit with my office rearranging.

Yet, the other archetype here has to do with words, verbal stuff, communication — we’re talking about swords after all associated with air and Gemini energy.

The day before we had the King of Swords giving his speech at the local YMCA, but the Knight speaks more in personal terms, expressing personal opinions and ideals and … simply speaking his own mind in a more personal or one-on-one manner.

Yet, the Knight of Swords has to be careful not to be self-serving in his communication and aggressiveness has no place when speaking one’s truth either.

Upon self-examination I don’t think aggressiveness applies and the self-serving part is still up in the air (pardon the pun),  but I call following my intuition, even though it was rather impulsive, something that is fair for all concerned.

How do I know it was my intuition guiding me to speak my truth?  Well, first of all there was a feeling and secondly, there was that familiar thing that happens when I sort of watch that energy that comes in and takes over.  Overpowering confidence and calmness cover the whole scene as well.  That’s how it is when a higher part of me takes over.  It’s happened before, and I recognize it.  The reader may have to take my word for that one.

Moving bravely in pursuit of one’s ideals and honest truth despite any cost and allowing the higher mind and intuition to work without fear or apprehension are descriptions of the Knight of Sword’s energy.  That’s how it acts in the psyche and the world.

Allowing one’s self to be “daring”–that’s a good way to express it.  And that’s what I did yesterday.  Daring myself to speak my truth in way that wasn’t forceful, just matter of fact.

This Knight of Swords doesn’t control his horse but allows himself to lunge forward ‘with’ the horse.

When one obeys one’s own Spirit (my personal experience correlates this fact), the gift that comes is one of avoiding ugly and unnecessarily unpleasant situations.

In astrological terms (if you are an astrology buff) we could think of the Knight of Swords as the aspect called the “opposition”.

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ADDENDUM – WHY AND WHEREFORE’S OF THESE TYPES OF POSTS 

In the morning when I first awaken, I let guidance come in and do a waking dream for the day ahead.  On one of these occasions recently I received a directive in the form of an idea laced with intensity.   “Draw a card at the beginning of the day and reflect on its meaning and then revisit it at day’s end correlating the day’s experiences with the card.”  That’s the treasure at the end of the rainbow so-to-speak.  Doing so gives insight into the world of divination for the purpose of adding layers or additional traits to the tarot card meaning.  This deeper understanding to the cards can be applied for use when doing future readings.  It’s like letting Life Itself teach us the cards.  

Boundaries and Blackbirds: Our greatest challenge is to break away from the herd

What do boundaries and blackbirds have in common?
What do Boundaries and Blackbirds have in common?

Carl Jung said that as humans our greatest challenge is to break away from the herd

Boundaries.  Those lines we draw around ourselves to maintain balance and to protect our psyche from invasion.  Yes, or maybe ‘intrusion’ is a gentler word.

The push of energy that comes from the behavior and the demands of others requires a boundary.  That boundary keeps us from being used or manipulated by others and within that boundary we can express our true nature.  Personal boundaries allow us to be in the driver’s seat of our own lives.

Without healthy boundaries we sometimes give up a part of our self to be available or accommodating in a way that enables others and causes a loss of self-respect.

We can  become so entangled with another person and their needs (co-dependent behavior) that we lose your own identity. This undermines our integrity and leads to a loss of self-respect — and the respect of others around you.

Respecting boundaries. I asked my self today if I honor other people’s boundaries.  Do I push myself on others?  When I get a hint that a person does not wish to socialize with me, do I continue to insist that they do so?  And  do I solicit others in passive-aggressive ways to elicit sympathy from others using them to assist me to push boundaries even further?

Sounds like a little bit like the animal–the bull, doesn’t it.  But you know how some people keep on antagonizing the other, right?   I have a visual.   Someone who is like a bull and charges upon others.   Wave that red flag in my face one more time and I may, do like the bull, and charge!  🙂

Do people have a fundamental right to set limits and expectations in their life without incurring the judgment of others?  I think they do.  You know that saying,  “You can’t really understand another person’s experience until you’ve walked a mile in their shoes.“–??

Can people consider the wishes of others yet still make choices regarding personal boundaries?

People are the way they are.  Can we accept that without judging them, trying to manipulate or change them?

I operate from my own truth.  You do too.  And when we respect other people’s truths,  we expect our own truths to be respected in return.

Manipulative people do not understand boundaries.  They force themselves into the space of other people’s lives.

Where’s the compassion?  Fear is the root of it all, you know?  The boundary pushing person has a fear of not being loved, not being good enough, deserving enough.  Okay, that’s understood.  So then what? Do we let the person keep pushing or what?

Compassion for the boundary pusher and for the one with the boundaries ( both ) is what’s needed here.  There is the defensiveness from the one with the boundaries who says, “See what I see, hear what I hear, feel what I feel and then maybe you will understand.”  And the other one, in the meanwhile,  of course still pushes– the habit of fear being the driving motivation.

“You couldn’t handle half of what I’ve dealt with and don’t understand that there’s a reason that I do what I do”, says the one who has been willing to accept responsibility for their own life and who has developed the self-respect which created the boundary.  Victim talk?

Personal boundaries are more than OK–and it doesn’t mean that you are selfish or unkind if you push back when someone pushes yours.  Boundaries mean that you have a clear picture of who you are and how you want to live.

In a family dynamic it is always more difficult or better said–complex.  Sometimes we have to endure a person for the sake of keeping the relatives happy, right?  Or do we?  Do we enable dysfunctional behaviors in family members? Or don’t we?

The “herd mystique” and it’s allure

There is a quote from Carl Jung about this being one of the human’s greatest challenges.  Fitting in with the group, the herd, the clan–“You are family so you HAVE TO be around me!”  Where is that written?  Genetic connection or NOT;  do we vote with our presence indicating that dysfunctional behavior is acceptable?

On another note, is it our responsibility to straighten other people out in ways that we believe they should ‘act’ according to our own standards of behavior?  Whoa! Now  that’s one huge judgment if we believe that.  Where’s THAT truth?  Speak it.  Does that sound right if you say it aloud?  Best not to push your truth onto others or become a evangelist — that’s a karma creator if there ever was one.

By placing a boundary and living within it, you are living your own truth and being compassionate to yourself and to the other as well.  You are also teaching people in your life what self-respect looks like through example.

We have to trust what we know and what we have learned from the work that we have done in our own life via self-analysis, theology, philosophy and spirituality. 

This is especially true if we speak about times when our boundaries are pushed and disrespected, especially in a family situation.  Those are the most charged with the opportunity for growth and for teaching through example.

People who push boundaries are giving you the opportunity to develop or to teach self-respect.  Pushing back is a delicate art.  Knowing how to push back against pushy people takes stamina and skill. (Personally, some days I feel too old for it quite honestly.)

Anyway, push-back involves maintaining your own autonomy and self-esteem when you are being invaded.  You know that you need to step back and protect yourself, while minimizing any hostility or confrontation.  Not easy.  People are going to be offended.  Sometimes I think pushy people know that and it makes them push all the more–or they enjoy the drama.

People who push boundaries are acting out of fear and desperately trying to fulfill their own needs.  Social self-reliance is not really their forte’, their strong suit yet; they’re working on it.  We’re all a work in progress.

Self-care means recognizing the importance of your feelings and honoring them and when you set boundaries, this is what you are doing.  It’s important.

But we’re “All One”–right?

We’re all one and connected and while this is true, and while we can be compassionate and understanding as we see the ‘bigger picture’ with self and others, we still have to be able to function here and in order to do so we must stay emotionally healthy while maintaining boundaries… all the while doing the relationship dance.  Being human isn’t easy.

Being human isn’t easy and being the best human you can be… well, it’s tricky sometimes.

I think the best thing we can do is get out of the judgment with the whole business with boundaries and relationships and being social.  I think Jung was right about the “herd mystique”– our greatest challenge being to break away from the herd.

To fully “individuate” is to be able to stop trying to “fit in” and  to be comfortable living in your own truth.  Separating one’s self from those to whom one does not feel an authentic connection takes courage.  The wrath of the clan falls upon you sometimes; that comes along with the territory of being your own person.

There is perceived safety in numbers which is an illusion just as much as any other erroneous belief we hold about living in this dimension.  Some people, and maybe I’m one, feel more authentic outside of the herd.  Strong boundaries are needed and when threatened, need re-enforcing.  Should that be a surprise?

What about karma?

Karma.  It’s our intention that creates it.  I think that needs to be said as well.  To have a boundary does not carry ill intent.

No man is an island onto himself, it is said.  We are one; yet, it is ego that separates us or gives a unique history of experiences and thus identity.

Judgment also separates us– i.e. “…you are different” or “… you should behave toward me in one way or another”.  It all gets us to work on our human growth and evolution both individually and collectively.

blackbirdBut in the meanwhile, as we do all of that, I like the blackbird way of interacting with their fellow birds. If a bird lands on a nearby branch and is not the mate of that blackbird they do a little nod (a bow) and fly away. Blackbirds are pretty solitary.  They are known to establish their territory, fiercely defending it (boundaries) by driving off any of their kind that get close to their vicinity.  Boundaries and blackbirds seem to go together.

What’s the bottom line? The ending conclusion? The final thought?  The summary? The point? The meaning?  I don’t know.   I just do hope something here helps someone out in cyber-world as I worked through some thoughts about boundaries today.

Here’s an article about emotional manipulation that I came across shortly after writing the blog above.  Some may find this helpful:

http://themindunleashed.org/2014/09/8-ways-spot-emotional-manipulation-free.html

When the Moon Transits the 9th House

Moon in the 9th House

The Moon (and therefore the mooD) wants to be immersed in wholeness.  The emotional experience is wide, includes everything.  Here’s a personal experience to (hopefully) explain those first few sentences better.  The Moon is moving through my own 9th house now so I am describing from that point of view.  Everything seems linked to everything else emotionally much too easily right now.  Example:  when one thought/feeling comes up, it’s like a Google search return/result.  I feel “this” because of “that” which is related to “this other thing” and while the emotions cannot be safely or securely compartmentalized, in order not to go into “overwhelm”, it’s best not to go into the one first though/feeling because it leads to all the others much too easily—immersed into the wholeness of it all.

This 9th House Moon relates to the archetype of the house ruler Jupiter/Sagittarius.  “Big Picture” is one archetype here.  Personally, the feeling I have about anything emotional right now is this:  best not to “go there” with that first feeling. Better to let all those emotions go or drown in them.  That’s a personal example of wide experiences that are associated with the 9th house and corresponding Jupiter/Sag largeness.  Jupiter, by the way, is known to intensify and expand any area that it touches.

So if a Moon is here in the 9th, it is looking to feel secure and happy (as all Moons are), it has to consider the whole big picture with emotional things.  This can be good or bad depending on what the other astrological influences the Moon is involved with at the time.  But no matter what the other influences are, one is that the Moon will affect our psyche in such a way that it gathers up and unifies all emotional links, binding them together in a big picture.

The emotional nature during this transit could be attracted to something outside of personal cultural norms in order to feel secure or happy–philosophy, long distance travel, interest in other cultures are all 9th house archetypes and a Moon here could trigger those interests as a way of feeling emotionally happy.  One example of that may be turning to spiritual beliefs or rituals that are outside of one’s own culture.  Perhaps a westerner turning to Hindu or Buddhist philosophy to cope with or resolve any emotional discomfort of the day.

Generally the mood during the time of this lunar transit could be extremely sensitive to moral issues.  One specific example could involve the karma of truth-telling versus telling lies.  Personally, I seem to experience people who change their tune based on their current changing needs and therefore their version of the truth changes based on their current need, desire or mood.  The 9th and it’s polarity the 3rd is sometimes called the “truth versus lies” axis and it’s also known as the B.S. axis too.

Essentially, the 9th house Luna is looking for “meaning” in the life at the time of this transit.  The ‘search for meaning’ and also the ‘big picture’ archetypes could be why the intuition and right brain are associated with this house.  Luna here would trigger the right brain and intuitive faculties.

An emotional question during this transit of the Moon could typically be something like, “What does it all mean?” or “What is the Universe trying to tell me?”  Again, the search for meaning.   This is because the energy of the Moon at this time enables us to feel the connections of the experiences linked to various emotions but we may not know what the greater message is.  (Then again, maybe we do.)

So the theme here is “the search for truth” and “the search for meaning”.

Some call this house “The House of the Believer”.  Our emotional connections during this transit may be prompting us to ask “What do I believe?”  And each month during this transit those beliefs may change or restructure a little bit based on emotion.

Another consideration is that our emotional responses to this searching and belief-adjusting and other emotional triggers can cause us to “damn the torpedoes” as the saying goes or to take a course of action despite known risks!  We could leap wide-eyed into the unknown.

Still another response of this transit of Luna in house 9 could be that we wrap emotion around a belief and become self righteous in what we believe.  This would be less than a positive response to our emotion.  I’ve heard a astrologer call this the Jerry Fallwell house of “convince and convert”.  (Religion!)

However we respond to life with Luna stimulating this area of our life,  it is good to remember that we’re motivated by our own (sometimes selfish) desire to feel happy and secure.

Dreams could be more active at this time, and as mentioned above, our personal philosophy could be adjusted or changed at this time due to our emotions.

If we are waiting for the manifestation of something we wish to create or experience in life, this is a time when it will be difficult to be patient–impatience (an emotion) will be most acute at this time.

It’s a good time to examine your basic values, priorities, beliefs and assumptions.  That said (or typed), I think of the line Byron Katie (The ‘Work’) is famous for, “Can you absolutely know that this is true?” 

When Luna triggers the 9th house area of your life as I’ve been describing in this post, it is a good time to get away from ‘the ordinary’.  Maybe read a book that will give you some new pictures and perspectives about your concerns now.

Its a good time to take a class, to learn something new that will help you with faith, intuition and/or philosophy.  Your emotional nature will be attracted to this naturally when Luna moves through your 9th house.  New areas of interest fulfill emotional needs at that time.

As I write this blog post Luna is in my 9th house .  And I ordered a book today about writing and publishing.  This feels very emotionally satisfying.  It’s right on time.  The 9th h house is about learning new things and it’s known for its connection to publishing.  Learning something new fulfills my emotional needs now and by the way another archetype of the 9th house is education.  These are the kinds of endeavors that enhance one’s happiness and sense of satisfaction and security when the Moon transits the 9th.

Planning a trip could also be something that fulfills emotional needs as Luna moves through this house of your chart—especially if this travel involves going to a foreign place.

Generally, optimism is assigned to this house and so this lunar transit is usually a time when this emotion is more prominent–one has to simply use care about the level of optimism balancing it with practicality.

Next, the 10th house!  As I finish typing this post, the Moon has already arrived in my 10th.  Last night I tripped over a pair of shoes that one of my roommates left in front of the door. It was dark.  I nearly feel but kept my balance thinking of how broken bones could could have resulted had I not.  The 10th is ruled by Saturn and Capricorn whose archetype relates to structure and bones; grateful that all mine are intact despite a near fall.  If you’re following these posts, see you in the 10th House!